Eyes of Truth


The light makes them move from the shadows.

The light filtering through the broken blinds flickers off and on; but even so I can see my unwanted visitors scurrying about the corners of this room. I can’t sleep. Not while they are running about. They are ravenous, their eyes watching for a moment of weakness unto death, like the grim reapers of what is left of us.

Only one more night and we’ll quit this hole for good and then I don’t know what comes next. I’m making this up as I go now. No plan B comes to mind.

This floor is hard and unforgiving, but maybe that’s what I need. No absolution for these abject bones. I’m just relieved that Jake and I have made it this far.

He is nearby me, his frail frame barely covers the filthy crib mattress next to me. He’s shivering. He always shivers these days. All I found was a dingy pillow I don’t dare lay his head upon, so I place it over his little body and lay my arm over him. Maybe it will be enough. A few more nights like this and all the warmth in the world won’t help us to survive.

His sleep is fitful, his breaths are shallow and raspy. Is he having nightmares again? After all his young eyes have seen, it may be that nightmares are all he is capable of dreaming. There is little difference between waking and the sleep of deathly visions that terrorize him in the icy darkness of night.

His eyes. They never made sense to me before, in those blissful ignorant days, but now they are what I must hide from the rest of the world at all costs. He was born seven years ago, just a few years before our world changed forever. Now I see that the change started the year before Jake entered our lives.

They are gray, his eyes. Not like the sea on a stormy day. They are almost silver. At night, even in the pitch black, you can still see them. Feel perhaps is a better word. When Kayla and I found out she was pregnant with him, it was a god-send. Years of miscarriages after the births of our three daughters had put an unbelievable strain between us, a cold seething resentfulness. But we were finally going to have another child and soon afterward I found out I would finally have a son. Joy seemed complete, forever and amen, at that point.

I look across Jake’s bony shoulders and see the slumbering form of a woman in her late forties. Her face, perhaps once beautiful, is scarred across her forehead with the tell-tale gash of a whip. There are marks on her neck, her arms, probably up and down her shrouded body. The dried welts and blisters are old. She had escaped her tormentors a couple years ago and had spent the last three months traveling with me.

She is not my wife. They took Kayla three years ago and I never saw her again. After all I’ve seen since then I pray each night that she’s dead. I know God is out there. I also know He doesn’t listen anymore. Not for many years. They had already used her in the most heinous way. The sweet oblivion of death would be a blessing for people like Kayla.

The woman near me is Rachel. Sleeping next to her are two others, wretched starving girls that are not her daughters, neither are they mine. We picked them up during a water run last month. The younger one had been struck mute with terror, frozen and stained with blood as she crouched in that black tunnel with her sister. She had still been holding her mother’s dead hand in hers. Where the rest of her mother could be was anyone’s guess. Whatever had happened, the girl hadn’t spoken since that day.

This woman is not my wife. These girls are not my daughters. The truth is, I realized a long time ago that Jake is not my child, either. Doesn’t matter. He’s my son. I love him and I’ll die before I let them take him back to their chambers, their laboratories, their observatories, dungeons of the damned.

He has my dark skin. He has his mother’s wavy golden hair. That should have been the first clue something was seriously wrong. Inherited traits are paired up in certain ways and get passed on in certain ways, too. Apparently, they didn’t know that. Whatever research they had conducted on our race before they starting infiltrating, they missed a few things about genetics. Their finest effort to make a real boy had flaws that I just didn’t see back then. Fool me once.

Still, he had filled a gaping hole in my soul at the time. My son. I can’t know how many of my unborn children had been males. Maybe all of them. With his birth, old hopes and dreams suddenly formed again. I had no idea that the real heartbreak and unimaginable terror was about to begin.

His eyes are open. I can feel them staring at me before I realize he is awake. He is sobbing, but making almost no noise.

“Were you having bad dreams again, Jake?”

“No Papa. I was dreaming of Mama.”

“I’m sorry, Jake.” I don’t know what else to tell him.

He was only four when they took her. I’m surprised he can remember much about her, but sometimes he tells me stories of the “early days” as he calls them. Perhaps that is another way in which he is different.

For example, he remembers nursing. He talks about the butterflies that help him to not be hungry. I remember when Kayla got those tattoos, so many years ago, before our girls were born. To Jake they mean comfort. To me they represent a carefree time, the last bits of which just up and flew away when Jake showed up.

“Did Mama say anything, buddy?” I ask him.

“She said to come to her. She’s waiting for us, Papa. She’s not sad like she used to be when she left us…”

“She didn’t leave us,” I interrupted him.

“When they called her away, Papa. When they made her go away to that place.”

He is silent for a moment.

“She’s happy now, Papa. She says to come to her. She says not to run anymore. That she’s waiting for us in the heaven.”

“Try to sleep some more, Jake.”

A few minutes later he is breathing that raspy noise again, his little shoulders heaving only slightly.

I think about what Jake said. Everything I’ve done up till now has been for him, to keep him alive, to keep him away from them. The things I had to steal, the people I had to eliminate, the destruction I had to wreak on those who would rob me of the last shred of my sense of family. It was all for him. But now what? There was no place to run after this. I only knew we couldn’t stay here anymore.

The rats are circling closer and closer now. There are more and more of them with each passing hour. I look at Rachel, still asleep. The young girl has stopped her sickly breathing. In fact, she’s not breathing at all. It is too late for her.

I look at Jake. Golden-headed savior of my soul. I remember that story I grew up believing about the savior of the world. There was something he had to do before his purpose could be fulfilled. He had to leave this world.

I move the pillow up higher and cover Jake’s face. There is no more time to plan, no more places to hide, no more reason to keep looking for love in this forsaken world. It’s time for us to go find Kayla, in whatever heaven she has found.

The rats are closer now, their eyes shining the truth back to me. The truth that will set me free.

Then a cold, blue light shines through the windows and floods the room. The watchers scurry back into the far corners. They know before I do that there will be one more pickup before it’s over. In a moment I realize who is driving the rover that has pulled up outside the abandoned motel. There will be one more run.

I pull the pillow away from Jake’s face. It’s time to move on. As I scoop him up and head toward the door, I know that wherever we are headed, those eyes will be there too.



I’ve got my anti-gravity dreaming boots

Got an anti-reality pistol that shoots

I’ve got hope and I use it like rocket fuel

Have a dagger made of pain, it’s a razor tool

I have no disdain for the earth beneath

But against ordinary I am armed to the teeth

Don’t know very much about the how or when

But I won’t be stopped, I’ve got a mightier pen



A comet streaked through the night sky so brightly that Adea awoke with a start. She looked about but could see only the tall trunks of black pines beneath a blanket of silvery stars.

“Where are we?” she asked the young man sitting next to her.

Jadon had been watching her sleep for over an hour by then.

“I used the hammer, Adea,” he explained.

“The hammer? But why? What happened?” Adea grew more alarmed by each heartbeat.

“They were coming for us. The har-goblins. I could smell them already and I had to get us out of there. I used the hammer and pulled you through the door.”

“Did any of them get through?” Adea asked.

“No. I don’t think so. I’ve been listening for them for the last hour or so.”

“So we’re in Soltre.”

The hammer was Lagvind, a mighty gift from the people of Soltre. One solid strike, anywhere in the all the Realms of Possible, would open a window back to Soltre, but only for a moment.

Adea looked down to see her feet wrapped in Jadon’s scarf. Then she remembered what had taken place what seemed like moments before she woke up among the towering trees.

She and Jadon had been resting in a small wood-paneled room at the back of the only inn in the village of Nor. It was already late at night.

“You know the har-goblins might come out in a place like this,” he had said, half smiling. He was gazing through the foggy glass windows at the moon.

“You don’t really believe in har-goblins, do you?” Adea had teased. “Those are stories for wee children.”

“Heard them of late, have you?”

“I am sixteen!” she protested. “And I don’t believe in them. It’s silly. Monsters that eat your toes while you sleep!”

Yet she had not protested when Jadon pulled off his scarf and carefully wound it around her feet. The gentle and tender way he had caressed them while wrapping her small feet reminded her of why she admired him so much.

“Now listen. If the har-goblins come, they must obey the Law of Toe. Only bare toes, exposed to the air, may be eaten. They will not violate it, lest they come under the wrath of the Har-Kong.”

“What Law? I think you’re making this up,” she said.

“I have it by authority of Farfar Landon,” he stated resolutely.

“I think you just wanted to touch my feet.”

“Silly girl. You don’t want your toes nipped off one by one, do you?”

“Have you ever seen anyone walking around the village with missing toes?” she countered.

“They all have shoes on, so you wouldn’t know, would you? Now go to sleep. I will stand watch and guard your toes, just in case.”

“In case what? You just wrapped my feet.”

“Just in case,” he said more sternly. “In case it’s not enough.” He looked slightly worried.


            Now in the darkness of the forest of Soltre, Jadon still looked a bit unsettled.

“I don’t think any of them got through. But they are real, Starlight. I admit, I didn’t believe the tales were true, but then the smell came. I heard the claws of their feet dragging along the floor in the hallway.”

She loved when he called her Starlight.

“But my feet were wrapped,” Adea said.

“I don’t trust the Law of Toe. I don’t really know what was coming down the hallway, but I wasn’t going to wait and find out. Ever since we left Soltre, all sorts of things we only half-believed before have been coming true. I had to get us out of that house, out of that village.”

“So you brought us back to Soltre? That’s like going backwards. You know what Bidron told us. We don’t have a lot of time.”

Jadon looked down pensively. He let out a long sigh. Adea’s eyes were getting used to the low light of the night sky and she could see he was holding something back.

“There’s something else,” she ventured. “Another reason you brought me here.”

“I just wanted to be with you, Starlight. Bidron said there were no night animals in all of Soltre. It’s just you and me right now.”

“Unless the har-goblins made it through the window,” she reminded him.

“Do you trust me, Adea?”

“I trust you completely, Jadon. With my life.”

“There are other ways to conjure magic, but the secret to all magic is that you must believe. Belief is everything.”

“I believe you.”

“Believe in my words,” Jadon whispered as he took her hand in his.

He raised it to his lips and kissed the top of her hand. Then he turned it over and kissed each fingertip once. Adea smiled.

“You going to start saying any words?”

“Shhh,” he warned.

He took her other hand and repeated the display of affection, almost as if part of a ritual.

“Now, believe this. I am a son of the Elgam. By kissing your hands and fingers in this way, you are protected from harmful magic until the sun rises.”

“You could just do that all the time if you’re trying to protect me,” she offered.

“It doesn’t work that way. I can only do that once every new moon.”

She looked up. The moon was full. Jadon saw her glance and followed her line of reasoning.

“In Soltre the moon is full. In our world, the moon is new. I saw that through the window as you were sleeping.”

“It’s like you planned this,” said Adea.

“Not exactly. But you are safe no matter what right now. Do you believe me?”

“I feel safe with you,” Adea breathed. “I believe you.”

“Then sleep, Starlight.”

He set himself against the nearest tree and pulled her softly toward himself. She nestled into him as he wrapped his arms around her.

“Sleep, Starlight. Tomorrow we will look for Bidron and seek guidance.”

“I love you, Jadon,” she mumbled as she slipped quickly into a deep slumber.

“I love you, too, Adea,” he whispered, as he realized she had already fallen asleep. “More than I should.”